Hello beautiful!
Well, let me tell you that I'm not going at all well. Intestinal inflammation Remember I told you? As it is worse than ever! And why? Obvio! Not to eat! I returned to the doctor and told him I would tell diminish pain had worsened, I asked many questions about my eating habits. I was nervous, lying in almost all the answers, do not know how much I believed the doctor, but eventually they let me go if not put in my hand, he could not help me = S.
Arriving home with my new supply of medicine, I became the purpose of eating healthy, at least until the pain is out (is that really, the pain is awful!), Thinking, how hard can it be? ? I've done it before! For lunch, I made chicken salad and cucumber salad. I ate it all right! In the evening I dined a sandwich with chicken salad that I had left over from the meal and a glass of milk NO light. At night, some guilt, embarrassment, but the conviction continue. On Wednesday had breakfast with fruit yogurt and granola .... and began to feel a little disgust, not because I knew evil, but I knew a ton of calories that contained (because I put honey and everything). To noon on Wednesday, and wanted no food! I felt full and disgusted ... But I ate ... and ended up crying with every bite you take me to the mouth ... and desperately fighting the urge to rush to the bathroom to throw everything I had eaten!
I swear if the pain I feel not so strong, and the potential consequences so dire, would have run to throw up without thinking, but I will not continue with this damn inflammation cuendo hurts me to move me! Well, today had breakfast a glass of milk and two graham crackers ... and for lunch, I have no idea, do not even want to think about it!
The thing is I never thought I pick up habits before reinstatement of spousal support, was so hard! I felt between a rock and a hard place, between eating and not eating, between pain and gain weight ... and not worse, not to do, or rather that quieria do, because what I do is eat well in order to improve, but I will not eat, I gain weight, do not want more calories in my body. ..
I want to die ....
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