Hola princesas!!
Bueno, pues hace mucho que no escribía, no me daban ganas... me he sentido de nuevo como ausente, distante de todo el mundo, de mi vida, de todo... No tengo motivación para hacer nada! Mas bien me siento una nada... No lo entiendo, yo creía que ya había superado esa horrible fase depresiva, pero al parecer no tengo control sobre mis emociones...
Bueno, pues en cuanto al peso, aghhhh! Subí, de nuevo estoy en 70. Además estoy super inflamada. La semana pasada, cuando comenzó la inflamación, me dieron tambien unos colicos muy feos, tanto que tuve que ir al doctor. Yo como good hypochondriac, I felt with appendicitis (pain was centered on the right side) or endometriosis (this is not because it occurred to me: P), the case is that almost saw me already on the operating table being operated on ¬ ¬ emergency. " And that was? As my doctor: it is the gut! I have the section up irritated bowel, and of course swollen. And it gives this? 1. By eating greasy or irritating things (no, I do), 2. By stress (may be), 3. As bad eating (ha! be why?). Well, in the end the dr. concluded (by himself) that was option 1, and I did not contradict him ... He prescribed some pills and told me to eat my hours and no irritating, seasonings or fat ... No problem! I finished treatment, but I still have the belly the size of a basketball, and it is no exaggeration! Well, I've had my hours , which was exactly what I said dr., Not fat, nor irritating, and since very few condiments, basically a little salt and pepper ... But BUEE ... I hope soon to lower the inflammation because can not stand and watch my belly! : '(
Princesses! I think I'm falling! And that scares me because they have no idea! I do not want to fall in love! I'm not ready for another disappointment! And whereas not know if he feels something for me, I think I have a good chance of get hurt ... So, shoot me indirectillas between innocent and playful, but this may be just a game to him ... And at first for me also was a game, but now I can not deny that I feel something for him ... I need to talk to him every day ... cuendo bothers me is not connected, or when connected and not talk to me, and when we stayed up late talking, I have the most placid of dreams .... AND THAT terrifies me !!!!! do not know how to get it out of my mind, and definitely do not want to get into my heart! My heart is definitely close to that thing the thing called love ...
In short, this month I was away, nothing has changed, I'm still the same disaster as always: depression, self-destructive and weak .... I'm getting better because I'm not young enough to expect something in my change ...
girls A big hug! I have always followed, but did not want to pollute your beautiful posts with my depression, why not comment ... Now try to do ... I love them! And do I need lots!
PD. Just send me an sms telling me that wants to come and see me! But it is 11:28 pm! Not to tell! = S
PD2. The entrance is without images xq my crappy connection will not let me upload ...
PD3. This entry was published yesterday in the night, but my connection failed and I am not, is, that is reassessed .
PD4. He came to me and if we were talking outside my house until 2am! (And I accept it, that makes me happy !!!!!! = D muuuuuuuuy
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