Ok, the damage count :
Thanks to my brilliant decision to eat "right" to prevent colitis I uploaded 4 kg! I'm back in 72! : '(So today was my first day of my new diet, which is not diet, just do not want to eat more than minimally necessary (Indispensable for? Do not know!):
Breakfast: 1 apple, 1 / 2 cup of light yogurt and some granola light (I could have skipped the granola!) and a cup of red tea without sugar.
Eating: A piece roasted chicken breast and some rice.
Dinner red tea without sugar and a graham cracker.
wanted to tell the truth calories but I am too lazy! : P
The fact is that although it was nothing "dramatic" I have been fatal all day! headache, dizziness, blurred vision, tremors and anxiety attacks ...
Besides, I think I'm entering another depression (obien I'm stuck, but good). I have no desire for anything, I do nothing of what it should do and do not give a damn , I have episodes of panic without knowing why and returned the urge to harm themselves ... The most frustrating thing is that not why I'm so! O good, rather there are so many things that are no longer ... My weight, my loneliness, my life in general! hate my life! is so horribly boring and monotonous ! And I have no desire to do anything! I literally spent the day lying on the sofa, my house is a mess, my schoolwork is atrasadísimo not want to leave, I will not even move, all I am too lazy, indifferent , I have sleep all day and when night comes I can not sleep! I'm so tired of living but nothing motivates me to do something to change it! Have you ever felt this way? It's horrible!
But today I overcame an obstacle and turned to run , half an hour but at least I got! Do not know what will become of my life if I continue like this ... going to die!
!!!!! I HATE MYSELF
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